One Life, One Purpose

One Life, One Purpose.

Being in the Mission Team to Malaysia had been a different experience. This trip is different from the other mission trips i have been to. The focus of the trip is to bring ministry to the people through a drama production called Prodigal. In this production, I took on the role of the runaway daughter who spent her life chasing after material gains, pleasures of the world, partying her life away only to realise that she will be betrayed, forsaken by her so-called friends. Since college days, i have not been active in acting and performing. So to have to get into role and on top of that sing, it wasn't easy for me. She is called Britney in the production. I had to embrace the role of Britney and understand her way, thinking..and sing the lyrics with emotions such as rejection, dissappointment, failure..It was certainly a challenge. But i want to thank God for the entire team for the support and encouragement throughout the trip in enabling to carry out what i did..and definitely Pastor Dom and Pastor Jan!

I was truly impacted by the heart of every person on the team-the heart of service and dedication to the cause made me understand the imptance of a team ministry-No man is an island. Through the times of prayer for the church and seeing how God moves amongst his people, moved me to tears. the power of God and the immerse love of God to his creation. On Sunday morning, as Pastor Dom preached, couldn't help but cried because of the great love of God to us. He shared about how it is often hard to love the people whom has hurt us the most and in my case, i could identify with PDom when he shared on how he found it hard to love his mother. In the same way, i had that within me too. I am still learning and growing in it but yes God has to transform me first before i could bring forth the love from me to the ones ard me and God chooses to use us to be his love extension to the people. Through our lives, people will see the love of the Father..It is indeed a journey for me in my life..I know that God is reminding of that once again..

One life, One purpose-to love him for he first loved me and to love the people ard me with the love of the father.

A New Life, Greater Definition!

Looking back at the happenings of my life since Dec 2008, its been a journey of believing and faith. Stepping out of my comfort zone was certainly not easy..Doubts, questions are a sure thing but in the midst of all of that was a bottom line called FEAR - Fear of unknown; Fear of underdelivering expectations of self and other significant individuals; Fear of lack of accomplishments. It was then that i knew, i had to surrender and come before God once again being just Kassey, his beloved child and broken before him. It was not just once but a many of times before i could say "I am ready in spirit to go!".

God has been good! Though it is only one week into my MI programme, i see the hand of God in all of what i am doing. My mum has been speaking to me as i make the effort to speak to her abt what i am doing and how i am. She still nags, together with my beloved dad, abt working in church of its prospects and my future. However, i believe deep down they know that i am happy and supporting me in this new work in their quietness, their own ways of showing me they love me by making sure i eat my breakfast and is home in one piece etc.

For myself, i am loving this new life i am experiencing! Never imagined that work could be so meaningful (though can be stressful at times too) and learning things that i have not had a chance too in the past. I am finding greater definition to this life that i live. When Kimmie prayed in the closing service on Sunday and released the word "Commission" to the IGNYTERS, God just spoke to me at that very moment saying, "Kassey, you are commissioned to be my apostle to the voiceless! You are my gem and i will use you in ways beyond your imagination!" I was very humbled and just broke down before the Lord as i know that i am only Kassey, a normal girl but he chose to use me for his purpose! Do i know what i am to do? I don't! But i know that i just have to be faithful to what he has and will entrust to me and walk with him (not run, as the journey of faith is a marathon) for the next 10-20 years of my life. I began to just think about the day's ministry of ministering and praying with Kathleen, Mel, Marist boys and Bro Marcus/Sis Jerlyn, i couldn't believe what i have done becoz it certainly wasn't Kassey but it was God! I know in my own strength i wouldn't be able to do and say whatever i did! Thru my hands, God has used me to release people for ministry! I never thought of that. ANd for that i was truly amazed and humbled.

I then remembered what God spoke to me at the hospital in Dec 2008..Of Jeremiah 1:10!I will hold it close to my heart! All for Jesus or NOthing!

Coming back to me

The last one year has been one that no words can describe. In terms of what I am going to pursue, it has taken a total change. I am not certain if i am ready for it but i will have to be. However, what has been really heartening is the awesome love and affirmation i received from my students and friends from SCGS. The things that they have done blew my mind away. One year is really not a long time. In fact, it is really short. But it has brought me to see how when you are willing, God just uses your life to touch so many others. I didn't know how even up till this point. What have i done to receive such love and affirmation puzzles me too. But I can only say, it has to be HIM above. It is not me...

There are many touching moments.one of it is this..I was really very pleasantly surprised by this pot of sunflowers. It contains hope, life and faith! Everytime i look at it, it never fails to encourage me and the message behind this is also very powerful. I am so glad that i had spent the last one year in SCGS.

I will certainly take much of the time in the next one month to ponder and look into my heart again on the next leg of my life. Thanks to all whom have so encouraged me!

ITs been TWO years..

Two years flew past just like a blink of the eye. Today i took my final examination! The feeling at that moment was undescribeable!!! Though at the back of my mind i knew it has not ended yet as i still have 2 outstanding assignments, it was surely a moment to shout for joy. Yet this joy was rather shortlive. I soon came to miss it all already. Schooling days will soon end for me. I am going to start facing the real world. Sometimes i just feel that i am a little girl who just does not want to grow up so quickly..Sometimes just wish that time would stop just for me and not moving forward...."I want to Just stay where i am"!

School is like a heaven to me. Life as a student is carefree..many things are entirely in our control..Good grades or otherwise is usually dependent on yourself..though there will be exceptions. These 2 years in school gave me a good break and i thank God for his favors upon favors. I may not be the smartest of person but be'cos of him, he gave me the strength and confidence once again to be the best he wants me to be. All of what i have achieved thus far could not have been done without the Lord Almighty. I give thanks to him for all i have achieved academically. To me, these 2 years being in school have been a great blessing already. Whatever additional i receive will be bonus. More than the academics, I have grew to learn about myself so much - my strengths, weakness, beliefs, values, principles ;). I have come to realise that my greatest enemy is myself. Often, its my thoughts, attitudes that prevents me from achieveing what God has intended for me. Its like scales falling off my eyes.