A New Life, Greater Definition!

Looking back at the happenings of my life since Dec 2008, its been a journey of believing and faith. Stepping out of my comfort zone was certainly not easy..Doubts, questions are a sure thing but in the midst of all of that was a bottom line called FEAR - Fear of unknown; Fear of underdelivering expectations of self and other significant individuals; Fear of lack of accomplishments. It was then that i knew, i had to surrender and come before God once again being just Kassey, his beloved child and broken before him. It was not just once but a many of times before i could say "I am ready in spirit to go!".

God has been good! Though it is only one week into my MI programme, i see the hand of God in all of what i am doing. My mum has been speaking to me as i make the effort to speak to her abt what i am doing and how i am. She still nags, together with my beloved dad, abt working in church of its prospects and my future. However, i believe deep down they know that i am happy and supporting me in this new work in their quietness, their own ways of showing me they love me by making sure i eat my breakfast and is home in one piece etc.

For myself, i am loving this new life i am experiencing! Never imagined that work could be so meaningful (though can be stressful at times too) and learning things that i have not had a chance too in the past. I am finding greater definition to this life that i live. When Kimmie prayed in the closing service on Sunday and released the word "Commission" to the IGNYTERS, God just spoke to me at that very moment saying, "Kassey, you are commissioned to be my apostle to the voiceless! You are my gem and i will use you in ways beyond your imagination!" I was very humbled and just broke down before the Lord as i know that i am only Kassey, a normal girl but he chose to use me for his purpose! Do i know what i am to do? I don't! But i know that i just have to be faithful to what he has and will entrust to me and walk with him (not run, as the journey of faith is a marathon) for the next 10-20 years of my life. I began to just think about the day's ministry of ministering and praying with Kathleen, Mel, Marist boys and Bro Marcus/Sis Jerlyn, i couldn't believe what i have done becoz it certainly wasn't Kassey but it was God! I know in my own strength i wouldn't be able to do and say whatever i did! Thru my hands, God has used me to release people for ministry! I never thought of that. ANd for that i was truly amazed and humbled.

I then remembered what God spoke to me at the hospital in Dec 2008..Of Jeremiah 1:10!I will hold it close to my heart! All for Jesus or NOthing!